Sometimes the most amazing things come from those you recently meet or those with whom you re-connect. I am feeling like I'm meeting me for the first time too. Where have I been all these years? Hiding so no one sees my pain and sadness. My inner core wants to protect people, but I was sacrificing myself. Maybe I am being selfish? Maybe I am just in self-preservation mode? Either way I truly am starting to enjoy life again. I am motivated to begin each day, to move through the work day, the exercise, the daily duties. And, as strange as it sounds, I feel like people react to me more positively as well. It's still hard, these life changes. I still feel sad because I know this will hurt people. But for the first time in my adult life I know what I want, I know what has been missing, and I am working toward correcting it with joy. I do hope people can understand. But if they don't, then I still will know that I have done what I had to do at this point in my life and I attempted to be gracious in my actions in doing so. I really do love people and hate to see anyone hurt. But, it is time I quit hurting so I can be a better me. And I am excited for a better me!